.Monday, July 30, 2007 ' 11:47 PM♥.
Haiz.. wad a day i had today.. one word to describe.. Hectic! I hate it... but wad can i sae.. this is the price i had to pay for leaving such word till today when i noe that tml i will be going for course... stupid me.... haiz...
stomach cramp and shoulders ache are bugging me.. i simply hate them to core... probably my body is telling me rest??? No way i could rest when i had this kinda boss... idiot boss.. i hate her! CRAP!!!!
ending here lar... tml gota go course... haiz................
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.Thursday, July 26, 2007 ' 10:04 AM♥.
It's been quite a long time since my heart went thru a marathon race. Yes, indeed, a very long time... Yesterday is a day where my heart went for a race. How amazing it is..
In the whole of my 21 yrs of life, i've been thru quite a number of relationships. But only 2 men could make my love life so... how should i put them in words... So Wonderful.. Let me briefly sae thru how they made me so much in love with them and still till now, they stand such such important places in my heart.
1) Junlin
I did not mention to a lot of people abt this person. This person is my ex, the one before Steven. He is the only guy, whom i have rebelled with my parents. The only guy, whom actually make my heart race, whenever i see him and kiss him... He is someone, whom can make me laugh at anything.. Yes, Anything.. be it jokes, nonsense...etc.. He is a wonderful guy, whom i have hated him for 1 whole yr but heart soften when he calls me up. True as it is..
I know, many will tell me, "Hey! You are now happily married, with a son. How could you still love another guy, treating Steven as invisible?" I know, i am wrong.. Emotion have gone out of track when i should one heartedly love only Steven. But love is not something which one can control... Love is not something which once can put a stop to it. Thou he is not highly educated, but i love him, not for the level of education he has. I love him, not for how good looking he is. I love him, not for how good his England is. I love him, for how he is like. I love him, for the kinda charm which i couldn't find from other guys. That is why i love him.
Currently, the both of us are still in contact. And we both bless each other for happiness. Maybe there is one thing that none will know about us. We 2 are similar in certain ways. We do not like to lure trouble. And we do keep problems in our heart. This is how similar we are. Probably, like what people had said," 我们曾经是恋人 。我们爱过彼此，也疼过彼此。可是，现在的我们以不能爱彼此。真是有缘无分。好悲伤."
Till now, he stand 1/3 of love in my heart. This 1/3 of love will be kept somewhere there for me to let me remember those happy moments, whenever i will want to.
2) Steven
This man is the man i am now married to. He too stand 1/3 of love in my heart. This love will always be there for me & him, till the day we die.
He is the kinda man where you will have to nag him to move him. Indeed, he is poor. But sincere move ones heart. I have mentioned to many people about him and many knows him. Thus i do not have to mention much about him.
Finally, that remaining 1/3 goes to my boy, Jayden!!
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.Thursday, July 19, 2007 ' 11:04 AM♥.
It's been quite a while i've met a close fren incidentally. And today, outside East Link while walking towards 67 bus area to wait for bus, Junlin came up and pat on me. He is still the same, as last time, onli one thing had changed. We are no longer a couple and i am married with a son, he is still single, in ITE, having a bunch of frenz ard him. But the one familiar thing remain, he is still able to make me smile. No matter how moody i am, he will be able to make me smile. Am realli glad that he is once, my ex, someone whom i had once loved before, someone whom i have once kissed before. But all these are of past tense. Something which could never be returned to its original state.
I must admit something. I have once hated him for a whole year. Just becoz he breaked up with me and, the way he broke up, is to go thru my kor kor, Jerry, to tell me. That is why i hated him so much during that year... For my character, i dun like people to go thru a big round to tell me that they wanna break... I rather they tell me straight in the face and let me cry... At least i will be much more happy this way. Still, the truth is still that i have broken up with him and now, he is my fren, maybe someone whom i can occasionally confine in... But still, guys are guys... They will still find someone to date with and get married then form a family eventually...
Right here in my secret blog, i bless him with all my heart. Wishing that he can find someone he truly love and be with her forever.
Junlin, wo zhong xin de xi wang ni neng zhao dao ni de zhen ai, xi wang ni neng ba na yi duan mei hao de hui yi dang zhuo shi yi chang hen hao de hui yi. Zhu ni xing fu!
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.Monday, July 16, 2007 ' 10:14 AM♥.
老婆 - S.H.E
从昨天 到今天
还有明天
感谢老天让你们陪在我身边 爱的心 痛的心
等待的心
因为有你们的拥抱我很放心
当初见面的不安彼此探索
也许有点茫然迷惑
朝夕相处才发现这世界中
没有人 比你们更懂我
朋友 姐妹
都已不够来形容
我们的默契骄傲扶持与包容
老婆 老婆
我们一起打勾勾
请记得约定的旅程到永久
从昨天 到今天
还有明天
感谢老天让你们陪在我身边
爱的心 痛的心
等待的心
因为有你们的拥抱我很放心
当初见面的不安彼此探索
也许有点茫然迷惑
朝夕相处才发现这世界中
没有人 比你们更懂我
朋友 姐妹
都已不够来形容
我们的默契骄傲扶持与包容
老婆 老婆
我们一起打勾勾
请记得约定的旅程到永久
lalalala ~~
朝夕相处才发现这世界中
没有人 比你们更懂我
朋友 姐妹
都已不够来形容
我们的默契骄傲扶持与包容
老婆 老婆
我们一起打勾勾
请记得约定的旅程到永久
请记得约定的旅程到永久
每个人爱人和疼人的方式都不同。有的人是以爱，有的是以骂，有的是以打。爱人是幸福，被爱也是幸福。可是，哪一个才是最痛苦，只有爱过了才知道。
爱不是可以以东西来衡量，爱也不是买卖可以做交易。真爱是无价。
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.Thursday, July 12, 2007 ' 10:36 AM♥.
Down with a very bad sore eye. As expected, baby spread to me lor... But i cannot whine or even complain as he is my son. What to do... Lucky Monday i was on half day and Tuesday i was on MC... But still, how i wish i can MC for this whole week den can slp at homel.... haha... but i know, wait long long den will have lor... Haiz....
This week is going to be a rather relaxing week for me despite have to do accounts but still, i like this week.... A bad news for me thou for week 2 of July, i am offically broke!! and now, hubby have to give me money to end for the next 2 weeks... haiz.. how i wish pay day will come faster... den i will have money to eat and survive on.... haiz.... no more buying of things next mth... thou i wanted to go metro tampines to stock up on bedsheet.... tempting tempting.... haha....
Next week is hubby's ORD week... How fast time fly and he will ORD in no time.... haha.. a burden finally down and i am able to wait for the day where i can get out of this company and find a new job... no more of nonsense here.... tired of the life here... i just wanna get out of here and have a new life... Haiz.... ok lar... i think i end here 1st... back to work now....
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.Monday, July 9, 2007 ' 10:23 AM♥.
This is a little paradise where i call my own. This is the place where i vent my anger, post my happiness, cry my sadness and every little things that i have in heart. It doesn't matter to me if anybody is reading this little area. Probably to me, it could be a small area whereby i keep all the informations of baby, me, hubby, friends, family or other things like recipes, shopping areas, good informations...etc... This is where i realli belong... This is me... My paradise, my space.... Let me start with this interesting info which i saw in one of my emails received this morning...
Can you trust him??What his body language and gestures say about him? Compared to women, men speak much less. Research has shown that average woman utters three times more than the number of words per day than average man does! So when it comes to guys, paying attention to body language is important. Here some pointers to look for if you want to find out what’s really on his mind
He Likes You• He makes the effort to call when he says he will.
• He initiates follow-up dates.
• He suggests dating exclusively because he likes you enough and hopes for it to evolve into something more serious.
• He holds your hand.
• He's not afraid to dress up for you or make little noticeable changes to impress you.
He's Serious About You• He refers to you as his 'girlfriend'.
• He confesses to really liking you.
• He actually cancels a night out with the guys!
• He tells you that you are amazing in all seriousness.
He Loves You• He refers to the both of you as 'we' and makes plans for the future, even if it's only for the following week.
• He lets you drive his car.
• He introduces you to his friends because he wants people who are important to him to meet someone he adores.
• He begins to assume that you weekends will be spent together.
• He slowly factors you into his plans.
He's Interested In You• He makes eye contact - not just a glance, but more like a short, intense stare to get your attention.
• If he's vocal when in a group, he tends to shower more attention on you than any one else, mainly because he wants to get to know you better.
• If he's the shy sort, he at least tries to open up communication channels in a subtle way by doing more than saying - such as getting you a drink or offering to help even when you may not need it.
• He faces you during communication and uses a lot gestures showing that's he's involved and open.
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