.Friday, September 14, 2007 ' 9:16 AM♥.
“You know, all mothers carry a special bond with their child. They can sense the happiness and sorrows that you carry in you. You know you are sick or not.You are not in your mother’s womb for ten months for nothing you know. You ate what she ate, you drank what she drank.However as her child grows up and face problems of their own, there are times when the mother can only watch. Because her child had display a “Do not bother me as I’ve already grown up” signal.Boys will want their ego, girls will want their privacy. This is something that mothers have to live with. We can only pray that they will overcome their problems themselves.I know my girl is very sad now. I suppose her relationship with Don is already over. I choose not to ask, I prefer to let her hug me and tell me one day.”
adapted from
www.anntonii.blogspot.com - Book of Love Chapter 16
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Remember the other time round, i said that i am addicted to this particular person's story novel. This time round, in his latest chapter prologe, he asked, what if you have 86,400 seconds. How would you spend it?
For me, i might used that 86,400 seconds, meeting up with long never contact friends, spending time with family and a little for myself. It's been quite a while i actually have my own quiet time. Working and working, slave of baby... i am tired. But i still have to go on. Haiz....
How about you? how will you spend your 86,400 seconds?
Ytd, hubby got a new phone. Yes. I am angry. Why? I am stuck with my current phone for coming 2 yrs +++... I've been wanting to change but got no money to change to a new phone. But he is not working and yet he changed a phone. I am so mad. Now i can onli relie on myself to buy a new phone for myself. relaying on him will onli cause more shortage of money. I am paying for everything. Nanny fee, transport, food, expenses... Everything is me... I am realli tired of such payment. I do not even have enuff money for savings. What's more to sae buy a house. Forget it lar! Live under the bridge!
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.Wednesday, September 12, 2007 ' 10:54 AM♥.
Everyone have dreams. It will slowly evolve into a different dream. A dream far from what you have wanted when you are young. The same applies to me. When i am young, i dream to be a teacher. Slowly when i grow, i dream to have lotsa fun and roam around the world. Later on, it evolved into getting married. Now, it has evolved into riding on the back of my beloved's motorbike.
Many will ask, why motorbike? I've got no idea either. Probably, i love the excitement of danger riding on the back of a motorbike. I love to feel the wind rushing thru my whole body. This kinda feeling is what you are not able to feel it, when you are in a car. That is me. I love new things, new excitement, new adventures. Guess, this dream will slowly evolve without realising it. *shrug*
Menses is here to say,"Hi!" and i hate the cramps which menses bring in. Haiz.....
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.Tuesday, September 11, 2007 ' 12:24 PM♥.
What will you do when your fear appears in front of you? Run? Hide? Scream? Cry?
For me, i will either run or try to find a place to run and hide while screaming.... lol... Well, this morning, i had a share of one of my fears. Big Dogs.
Yes, i am afraid of big dogs, extremely. Probably it's becoz of childhood memories which lead me to such fear. Small dogs are nothing to me, but big dogs like golden retriever, labrador...etc, they are a threat to me... Dun bring them near me, or i will break down and cry and cry non stop. This will apply to insects too. Whatever insects, except ants and flies, i will break down and cry. So never expect me to live in a place full of insects or big dogs. I will die! Haha....
Well, been in a veri bad mood recently. PMS. Yes, period is coming and i am moody... Mood swing. Bad... haiz... Who ask me to be a woman. When you are a woman, you will have to handle mood swings, periods, pregnancy, abortion, emtion and physical depressions...etc... Haiz.. Tough life for a woman ya...
Will be busy these 2 weeks, gotta go shopping for baby's present, guest list, catering and his party,..... After that, 2 baby showers and 1 21st birthday. Broke!!
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.Monday, September 10, 2007 ' 10:01 AM♥.
Currently i am down with a bad headache. It felt as if someone had knocked me from the back of my head causing me to have such a bad heaache. Haiz... What a day. Connie is back from Taiwan and i will have to go back to my old system... rush rush rush...
Next sat will be baby's 1st birthday celebration, nothing has been done other than the notification. Not sure how many ppl will come, no idea. Dun wanna even think abt it. For the time being.
Been thinking alot since last weekend. Saw Quan came back from Hong Kong and talking about Hong Kong. Was thinking, am i able to go to Taiwan next year end? With hubby not working, i dun think i will be able to at this rate. Not even to think about applying for a flat. All i can hope for is him to stable a job by the latest December. Apply a house in Feb and wait for the result. Haiz... i dun dare to think again...
Gotta start working again....
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.Monday, September 3, 2007 ' 11:28 AM♥.
Been not blogging after the last blog.. I am recently busy with work and baby... Haiz... Other than that, i am stuck with stoy blog. Highly recommanded....
www.anntonii.blogspot.com It's a must to read. His story will get you stuck and you will go huh?? why like that... Haha....
Boss is not around the office as she is gone overseas!!! Yeah!!! 1 whole week of freedom!!!!!! Love it!!
Ever since after the previous blog, me and him seldom contact. Partially, it is good as i can really let go of my feelings for him, on the other hand, i do still think of him whenever i walk past some places which we used to frequent. But still, i do have to let go of such feelings. We can't possible hang on and not let go. It will never ever work out.
There was once i did tell him, i really hope that he can go and venture out and eventually, find someone better than me... Someone whom he can realli rely on and love. Hope that he has found one.
Oh... Coming weeks, i will be transferred over to the accounts side instead of staying in the admin side. Ahhh.... The feeling is good... Well, i've been wanting to resign since i've been staying in the admins for so long.... But since the opportunity is here, i will have to stay on for a few more years before i go out to the reality world to venture out. Tiredness bury me and now, i will have to slog and slog and slog like a cow. Well, such responsibility is on me. This is what it is like when your hubby is stuck at home, playing games, sleeping, while the wife work and work... How will i ever get a house of my own? and when??? I really wanna rest and go on holidays. But i dun think it will happen this year. Probably next year. Hope so...
Will be going over to KKH to visit Clara in the evening. Yes, baby Zenn is out to meet this world. guess i will end here.
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