.Thursday, December 25, 2008 ' 2:38 PM♥.
glitter-graphics.comMerry Christmas to all!!!But to me, this christmas is not a gd christmas.. Argued with him over the kids again... Pek cek.. Why muz this always happen.. It's always over the kids and his sleeps... Yes, he helped me last nite to feed Shermes his nite feed and i get to slp.. But, juz now when i need his help, he rather choose to slp... I guess, i realli have to close factory.. No more... i had enuff of such life... Enuff...
i am tired...Boys den boys.. No daughter den forget it.. Whether the boys will be gd to me anot in future, i wun bother abt tat.. All i care for now is tat they grow up healthy.. the rest, leave it to fate..
Last sat, he alreadi said that i do not want him.. This is how he "appreciate" all the things i have done.. Let it be... I told him, if this house(my ILs are selling this flat) gets to be sold successfully and he do not wan to stay with my mum, i am fine with it.. He can jollywell stay with his ah ma.. Coz with him ard, the kids, esp Jayden, wun get so noisy..
i am realli tired... Shermes ar Shermes, mummy is waiting for the day you slp thru.. Jayden ar Jayden, mummy wishes tat you grow up and be good... Haiz.. how i wish my wishes will come thru... 1 more wk before 2009 comes.. I will be pinning down my resolutions for 2009 soon....
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.Friday, December 19, 2008 ' 1:39 PM♥.
Recently, lotsa lotsa emotions overwhelm me. One moment, i can get veri angry. The next, i will get veri upset over small matters. Perhaps somethings doesn't seems like small matter to me, esp when comes to handling of kids.
Nah.. It's not abt my PILs.. It's abt me, hubby and his brother (of coz, my BIL). At times, it realli makes me wonder, juz these 2 kids belong to who? Me & hubby's or his brother's? Obviously they belong to me and hubby's, but whenever Jayden make a big fuss at home, he(BIL) will wanna step out and make Jayden even more noisy. Eg. Recently, Jayden has caught up a habit of screaming (tried stoppin in millions of ways but to no avail.) and running ard the house going in and out of every room. Everytime Jayden enter his room, he will get angry and scold Jayden, threaten to cane him..etc. As Jayden's mummy, i will get angry. To me, onli me and hubby can cane him, why muz u poke ur nose into this matter.
Juz like ytd, hubby took urgent leave to stay at home since i wasn't feeling veri well. In the evening, as i am feeding Shermes his milk, Jayden climb up a stool and play with the water in the kitchen. I walked into the room and scolded hubby(he's sleeping) to wake up and get Jayden down the stool and out of the kitchen. Pretty much from wad i noe, hubby scolded Jayden and caned him(lightly lar). At this moment, do you noe wad his brother do? He walked out of his room, crossed his arms, attempting to watch "show" Oh well, i chipped him away, asking him to get back to his room and dun come and poke his nose into this matter! The rest of the thing is hubby brought Jayden into our room and cane him. How he cane i dunno. Apparently it seems like he cane the cupboard. I did scream at hubby outside the room to get him out lar
Den later on, abt 5++pm, my MIL came back home and guess wad, my DEAREST BIL "complained" to his mum tat hubby caned Jayden!!! Hell man!! Wad a "SMALL" mouth he has!!! Of coz, Jayden will continue on and tell my MIL. hubby caned him. Hubby later on luff off saying,"Ur grandson complaining to you ar.." I told hubby,"aiya even before ur son complain, SOMEONE alreadi COMPLAIN to ur mum le lar.." I juz dun like it lor... Why muz he treat all these things like watch a movie? Should i provide popcorns for him everytime Jayden gets a beating??
One more matter abt him. As i've mentioned above, Jayden like to walk in and out of every room, esp his room as it is nearest to the living room. He told hubby ytd, "Ur son keep walking in and out of my room, how am i to study?" He is talking Pte "A" Levels FYI. HA!! Why my brother can study when Jayden is screaming like mad at my mum's place and he can't? Ask himself, when he is suppose to be studying, wad the heck is he doing? Play warcraft, watching Taiwan Series and, SLEEPING!!! You call this study?! He is given the chance to study he dun wan. I am not given! I fail my "O" levels and took up a pte dip. My dreams were shattered the moment i fail my "O". Did i complain abt noisy? NO!!
I tell you, if now i am given a chance to study, whether noisy or wad, i will give my best to study.
Haiz... this is my onli avenue to vent my anger. Even if i tell hubby, i doubt he will do anything to it. My onli hope now is my PIL faster sell this flat, den i can move back my mum there. At least over there, i will be happier.
Note: Ytd, a ladder fell onto MIL's foot in Giant Tampines. Lucky no bone factured.
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.Wednesday, December 17, 2008 ' 3:56 PM♥.
Attended a wedding last Sat at Furama Riverfront. Not as gd as what i expect but at least the bride had a wedding dinner which i do not had. Haiz... It's my cousin's wedding and he had a beautiful wife. Both working as coast guards.
Below are some of 3 of his wedding pix..
His bride is pretty isn't it?
Morning went over to his place for tea session, oso a relatives gathering session lar.. Oh.. my dad is his God father, thus my dad is pretty excited abt the whole matter.. Photos below are all taken at nite, during dinner..
my er yi and her granddaughter
Cheeky brothers
Isn't he cute?
Me & my brothers
Ah ma & Shermes
my little nephew,niece and jayden (my cousins' kids)
Uncles and nephew
Ah gong, ah ma & the grandsons
Mummy and my 2 brothers
Hubby and me
The Ah Zhor and great-grandson
The mummy and siblings
Me and my mummy
Hehe.... Ya.. It's me and my family lor.... below is abit of the wedding dinner..
The table to tabl photo-taking
Yum Seng Session
The bride and the groom
Hehe... The montage is done by his sister, my beloved cousin, Esther. Nv take pix of tat... But at the end of the day, i did something.... Hehehee....
Yeah.. i stole roses home... Lolx.. I am a rose person.. The rose attracted me so much tat i brought them home... Oh well, hotel will throw them away at the end of the day eventually. Give me rose and i will love you. But plz, no yellow rose, unless you are my frenz... The best is give me Champagne Roses, or perhaps white mix pink roses.. I will love you more... Bahahaha....
Finally, these are the gifts given...
Lovely huh...
Throughout the whole dinner, Shermes slept 1/2 the time.. The other 1/2 was caused by the noisy and loud music.. Otherwise, i guess he will slp thru out the whole dinner.. As for Jayden, he is either eating or getting in and out of the high chair... Haiz... cannot stand him...
Oh... Here is a blessing from me to my cousin.. Wishing him and his wife 白头偕老，永结同心. Most importantly ........ ........ ........
早生贵子!!!!!!! Faster give birth to a cute cute baby!
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This is juz a small note of how i feel everytime i attend a wedding dinner... Haiz.. I had to hide my emotions everytime i see bride and groom walk down the hotel asile.. I envy them so so much... Frenz who have attended my wedding will noe, i do not have a wedding dinner on my wedding day. This matter, will be my lifetime regret. Every girl will wan to have a perfect wedding on their most important time of the day. This includes me, but i do not. My parents did not request for 1, thus my is onli the morning wedding ceremony. I have requested for 1 from hubby mani times but he will tell me, "Wait till our 20th Anniversary den we do.." Haiz... Sometimes, i wish to tell him this...
我何时何月才能有自己的婚礼。虽说和你结婚了两年，可是，能有一个完美的婚礼是每个女孩的梦。你说等我们的二十年记念日才办。可是，你可知道，我天天希望是“明天”。 那个“明天”何时会来?
But i know, it might nv come... Probably, till the day i die, this day will nv come.. Even if it comes to buying a car, he will oso drag on.. Haiz... Well, i am going to clear my BTT and FTT by Jan'09. Den after CNY i am going to get my practical done... Latest by June'09, i must get my licence... Euff of waiting for him to clear his things... Haiz... What a hubby i have...
.Tuesday, December 16, 2008 ' 2:51 PM♥.
Hubby recently dunno is money too much or siao, bought me so many things... let the pix do the talking..
.Monday, December 15, 2008 ' 11:06 AM♥.
Busy and angry these few weeks.. plz bear with me if i nv update my posts.. Got 2 kids to take care, got cleaning and clearing of room to be done.. Slp totally deprive... haiz... Will update and upload all pix and videos once i am free... Perhaps over the weekend ba...
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.Thursday, December 4, 2008 ' 12:51 PM♥.
I am happy coz i went shopping! Retail therapy is the best. Thou i onli bought 2 top in This Fashion but still i am happy!!
Oh... i need help with wad to match with these 2... Please give me idea!!
What to match with huh? I've got a wedding dinner to attend on the 13th and i am planning to wear one of these... Headache ar..... tian ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Or got ppl wanna go shopping with me to match and mix? lolx..
Oh! i am happi for another matter... I bought the Combi TM359 Stroller!!! yeah!! i can go out without having to worry abt that bloody heavy pram... Everytime bring out have to suffer frm aches... Grr... Now.. I no need to worry so much abt pram loh.... hehehe... Happy happy....
this will be a quick post lar.. Shermes sleeping.. scared he wake up anytime... Before i end, a quick note... Hubby dunno wad happen to him, in the middle of the nite, heard him scolding Jayden, making jayden cry... Siao one... Dunno scold him for wad.. like as if he offend him like tat... mad...
end with a video of Shermes... Pardon me if it bores u...
*To be uploaded
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.Tuesday, December 2, 2008 ' 12:26 PM♥.
Tag Replies:
20 Nov 08, 12:39
Pris: wah not bad ar... we actually aiming for the same phone
Ans: I like it coz got PINK!!20 Nov 08, 19:47
tingg: Hmm, that phone sot sot de. My friend have it. Her camera takes like 30secs to capture one pic. Sibeh pekcek. Lol. Donno isit the phone faults or only hers.
20 Nov 08, 19:47
tingg: I mean dont know isit all the phones is like this, or only hers. Haha.
Ans: Izzit?? But i like the colour... Hehe.... Pink pink pink......30 Nov 08, 23:05
Sandy: Baby Shermes so adorable! =) Oh ya, i like that phone too because there's pink! Haha. You know whether there's a front camera for tht phone?
Ans: Shermes cute? hehe.... Ya.. He rounder than kor kor... I like it in pink toooo!!! No front camera.. But doesn't matter me... Hehe... Pink is the most important factor... 2 Dec 08, 00:50
mummymargaret: happy 1month old to Shermes!! must rest well man.. get enough slp ya.. free will visit u n ur 2 bloys.. hehe
Ans: I dun wan bring 2 boys out alone.. Scared...사랑해
I am back with Shermes's Birth Story.....
30th October 2008
Went for check up with Dr Yeap, did VE and CTG.. dilate 3-4cm.. Asked to induce the next day, 31st October 2008. Haiz.. Was hoping to go thru naturally without having to induce, but still...... haiz..
31st October 2008
Reached KKH at abt 8++am.. Went straight to Delivery Suite to wait for my room no to give birth.. Wait and wait still no room so asked the nurse if i can go for my breakfast since i haben eat.. Nurse called Dr Yeap and approval given.. So went down to Kopitiam for breakfast.. den 9++ went back to Delivery Suite..
9.20am
Room 32 given and admitted... given bare back to change and lie on the bed.. waiting for Dr Yeap to come poke water bag, administer drips, CTG strip on..etc..
9.31am
Dr Yeap came, water bag poked... A lot of water sia... the whole bed is my water... lolx... Drips administered, CTG strip on and my nitemare start... Contractions come and go.. Gas used but still the pain come and go.. Haiz..
10++am
Nurse came and increase the drip.. Contractions got worse.. this time, it is like tons of weights being stressed on my spine.. Even gas oso cannot help me..
11++am
Got the wanna pang sai feeling,tell nurse i wan pang sai.. But was told not sai.. Is baby's head.. Haiz... stupid.. This time dilate 5cm.. So slow....
Still 11++am..
Another round of contractions and wanna push feeling.. 6cm dilated.. But i couldn't start the pain.. Nurse asked if need her help to dilate to 7cm.. I agreed initially but gave up after tat.. Coz she insert her finger in den dunno do wad, the feeling of pain is indescribeable... I gave up at last lar... let the pain bug me and gas make me HIGH......
12++pm..
Nurse did VE and instruct me to turn my body sideway to expedite the baby's head.. This time round 7cm... I dunno why leh.. I keep wanting to turn my body sideway to ease the pain ard my back.. but the machines wun allow me to turn so... i wanna die of pain le lar... i almost pull hubby onto the bed again... haiz.. and i bite him... Haiz.. too painful to bear... I kept telling hubby, "i dun wanna give birth le! i dun wanna give birth le!" I got the tot of not pushing Shermes out and let him stay in there. I even got the tot of telling Dr Yeap,"push me into the Operating Theatre now..." but i nv sae lar... But i kept telling hubby, "after this one, i dun wan another one.. no more.." Realli is close factory le lar..
1pm..
Pain still bug me.. haiz...
1.15pm
Feeling of wanting to push is here le... Told nurse and was told not to push, but i keep wanting to push.. Forced by the nurse to breath the gas coz if i push non stop, i will tear... Breathe until i si bei high.. like as if on drug like tat...
1.20pm
Dr Yeap came and finally! can push le... push and push but to no avail.. Epitomy given and i still persist pushing.. Baby still dun wan come out.. Grrr.... Halfway thru i scream like mad woman lar hor...
1.31pm
Baby finally pushed out and he is here!!
After tat, it is all the stitching, cleaning..etc.. I lost quite an amt of blood, abt 250cc.. Whole bed is my blood... Den when look at the bin, so brim.. All the padding is my blood... Haiz...
The whole process took me 4hrs and again, No Epidural was administered! I did it again!!!!
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.Monday, December 1, 2008 ' 10:44 PM♥.
A little late but still,
Happy 1 month to Baby Shermes!!!
No celebrations was done.. But cakes and vouchers were given out.. Here is the cake.. Courtesy of Sweetest Moments 
A big thanks to all frenz who have come and visit me and Shermes.. Also thanks to those who have sent their regards over.. Pix of gifts will be uploading perhaps next week since most were over at my mum's place... Birth story will be updated tml.. Stay tune!
Shermes had his 1st month injection today.. As usual, he wailed out load! yeah.. pain.. And he grow from 3.5kg to...... 4.8kg!! Yes, i was like "WOW!" lolx... Nope, i am yet fully breastfeeding him, i am aiming towards my goal... Perhaps might give up half way... haiz... He have oso grown taller.. from 51cm to 55.5cm.. Hehe.. tall boi...
And a big pat on myself coz.............. CONFINEMENT is OVER!!!!!! Yeah!!!!! now i know why confinement is known as confinement.. Coz you have to be CONFINED at home for 1 month.. torturing... Haiz... But it's over.. i am happi again!!!! But i have become a panda... grrrr..... Hao lar.. enuff of my wordy posting... Shermes pix before i end!!!! Bye!!
Cheeky brothers
Isn't he cute?
Me & my brothers
Ah ma & Shermes
my little nephew,niece and jayden (my cousins' kids)
Uncles and nephew
Ah gong, ah ma & the grandsons
Mummy and my 2 brothers
Hubby and me
The Ah Zhor and great-grandson
The mummy and siblings
Me and my mummy
The table to tabl photo-taking
Yum Seng Session
The bride and the groom
